my kawaii blog

Depress no more! :)

2009-09-16T04:09:00.001-07:00

No more depression!!! I kind of gain confidence now (^_~) that i can actually do it.
Yay! So happy! And it's true that TVXQ (^*^) has been a big part from taking me out off my depression state, they really cheered me up with there music and goofy looks. I love them!!! ~~Someday when i go to Korea i'll find them and do the same~~ (so cheesy). Lol, yeah right! But hey, nothing is impossible!

I'm proud to say that i'm not miserable anymore! (^ω^)V

(^^ I have no idea why i putted that gif. Probably because Jj is so darn sexy!)

Oh! I've found the cutest thing in the whole wide world.

Do you know him? He's just my future husband to be, Micky Yuchun. Can you see his eyes? Lol ^^

Just a short post by the way, i'm kind of buisy.

Speechless

2009-09-15T03:13:00.000-07:00

S-P-E-E-C-H-L-E-S-S

What do you think? Unbelievable, right? They can really sing Live, and they're absolutely brilliant. They all sang well and really gave it in.. I don't know if there are words to describe that performance.

I know Bolero was so yesterday but i've just recently listened to it so we're like getting to know each other better. I have never watched the music video actually, i much prefer watching the live performance but i'll watch it sooner or later when i'm in the mood. Probably, when all of my worries are gone. Anyways, my Yuchun is so cute, he's eyes disappear whenever he sang his part and i love his "high part" with Jaejoong. I don't know if that's called a "high" part, so forgive me if I'm wrong. Lol. Junsu is also amazing, brilliant actually along with pretty boy Jaejoong. There voice is what made the song so good.. Yunho...yunho, yunho, yunho...Speechless, i've never thought he could sing that well in live. He was just the rapper and dancer on there other songs but never had an idea he can sing that well. And the maknae, Chagmin. He's so young but his voice is simply fantastic.

Just watch the video, i'm running out of words, that's why i kept using the same words over and over again. I told you, words can't describe how brilliant TVXQ is. They've prove again that they are not just faces, they've got real talent. Fighting TVXQ!!!

I have nothing to do now since my training got canceled, so just looking at some TVXQ stuff. Today, i'm really confuse and dizzy, i don't know what to do. "Do i have to do this, or that first? or maybe be that. No, i think i should do that now" and so on.. ~~I'm so darn miserable!!!~~

Cheer me up??

~~Thank God i don't have Junsu's bad Engrish.~~ Lol

Oh my God, Sun

Always Keep the Faith because 5-1=0

Kawaii Desktop Icons slash Depression

2009-09-14T00:40:00.000-07:00

My new desktop, see how cute it is? (^_-)-☆

Can you see my new desktop icons? Aren't they kawaii? It took me almost an hour to change the old icons into this but it's so worth it though it was rather head aching and annoying.

It was really hard for me to decide what wallpaper to choose. The desktop icons has some wallies that would pair to them but i don't like it very much, it's not very me. I was planing to have a Junsu wallpaper since i had Jaejoong and Yoochun the last time but then i thought i should have all the member on it instead. There were many wallpapers to choose from devianart but i want something that is not looking at you, know what i mean? ~~I feel a bit awkward when a picture is looking straight at you~~. It's hard to explain. I felt like TVXQ is looking at me, weird eh? My first choice was the Step by Step wallpaper, it matches really well with icons but yeah.. my weirdness attacked again... I saw a Mirotic wallpaper but i'm afraid my mom will tell me that i like watching ~~gayporns~~. (O.O;) *no offense TVXQ! You don't look like gays, my mom just think you do. (Parents would never understand the obsession of girls with pretty guys, sigh (T.T)) Then i end up with this, the Summer Dream wallpaper. It matches well with the icons, right?

Click Here to download the desktop icons.

Enough about that desktop thing. Today, i feel like i wanna be umm, free? No, not that free ~~i can do anything i want to~~. Free as in, free from the things i don't like to do. I feel so awkward, nervous, empty, sad, and miserable (X_X) this past few weeks and i really, really hate it. I wish this month would be over, and then i'll finally know that i'm free.

Why does it has to be me??? I wanna quit! But i can't! (¬_¬)

I felt like i can't do it, but i also felt like i have to do it for the sake of people getting to know me and for the sake of actually facing my fears. I try to think more positive, and that some people has more worst scenario than i'm in right now. But thinking that way, i feel like even if that scenario of theirs is much worst than mine at least they like what there doing.
And oh, this is not a between life and death problem. You wouldn't understand the heck what i'm talking about, i just wanna rant. ~~ Argh, i'm so ~~lack of self confidence~~ that's why!! I'm like a snail who can't get out on its shell!! A ugly little caterpillar!

After all of this is over, i have to do something....though i have no idea what it is...

...Enough Said...

바보 클라우디아 씨

Miss No Good

2009-09-13T02:55:00.000-07:00

Same Regret By Wilber Pan

I love the song though i don't really understand it. It's so sad, makes me feel like crying but it's a really good song.
And the song won't get out of my head ♪└(^_^)┐. I keep humming it too, it's stuck on my mind.
Does she know, don't think so~~
Wilber Pan is a really great singer and also very handsome. I hope he will work on many dramas or movies in the near future, i also like Rainie Yang and Dean Fujioka.

The drama is pretty good, i love how vicious Tang Men's tongue is and how ~~weird-looking~~ Xiao Hua is..well, sometimes. Lol.
I love Dean Fujioka's (Jia Si Lei) eyes, can you see how mesmerizing it is despite having a single eyelid? I love his name by the way, i'm planning to name my future dog "Jia Si Lei" hahah. Now, that's something.
You should watch it! 5/5

Xiao Hua's Joke: this is the time when Jia Si Lei was in a coma.

The older penguin asked the other younger penguin what are there hobbies. The first Penguin said "I like to sleep, eat, and beat up Dong Dong" Then the second penguin said "I like to sleep, eat and beat up Dong Dong" The third penguin said "I like to sleep and eat" The older penguin asked "why is your answer different from the others?" The penguin replied "I'm Dong Dong"

eh?! 1987?! o_O

2009-09-12T03:19:00.000-07:00

I was mistaken for a ~~1987ers~~ and it was shocking. I think i look old when i have make-up on my face. Oldie? No way!

I replied to her "Ah, yeah. I look kind of old whenever i have make-up on" It's like the first time people had told me that, ever! But it's alright, i don't blame her at least it explains that i don't look like a kid anymore. I always think that my face looks like a kiddie face. Lol. And i do look kind of old in my 411. So, it's alright. No biggie. (＾▽＾)

Oh, they've guest my ethnicity wrong again. *chills. A Chinese or a Vietnamese again. Well, i'm a Chinese but the blood isn't that much so it's weird if they guest that i'm a pure Chinese. Is Chinese and Taiwanese the same? I'm a Filipino-Taiwanese. Sigh, dizzy. Never mind.

Why do i feel Sad?

2009-09-11T05:42:00.000-07:00

Sad-ish mode. I have no idea actually, i'm thinking because it's the JaeBum thing. I'm not really a big fan and all but i felt kind of sad, it's really weird. From the moment i saw JaeBum's pictures in Soompi it kind of affected me in some way. Yikes! ~~Emotionally disturb by JaeBum~~. lol. They should have really given him a chance and it happened like years ago. Past is past and should never be discuss, give him a break for goodness sake. Sigh, JaeBum fighting! WuahH ~_~i'll miss him and 2PM.

Hey! a commercial: cutie Lee Donghae and Wilber Pan look a like, Henry Lao.

(does it make you want to drool?)

..anyways back to reality. I think my weirdo neighbors are also one of the reasons why i'm sad. From morning until now i can hear there ~~stupid voice singing on a cheap Karaoke that they rented somewhere~~. I can't here the television nor my music. There voice sucks, why sing? Out of tone, drunken voice and some freaky music. If it was JaeBum singing on the Karaoke i'll make an exception. Arrgh, they pronounced the "Lips of an Angel," "Leps of an Angel" Stop it, please... I hate Karaoke, i never do Karaoke. (¬_¬)

By the way my blog has a new skin. Cute, right? I like the color blending it's really simple. And 0h, it has a navigation. But i don't know what to put on them yet so if you click them you will just see some links on where to find me.

Late Post <3

2009-09-10T03:17:00.000-07:00

So basically the computer totally ~~died~~, the doctor tried to save him but he gave in. *cries. Yeah well anyways, my mom bought a new one. It's expensive but it's really nice. It's a flat screen and a bit smaller than the old one. Actually I'm getting used to the whole thing, the screen, the mouse, the keyboard, etc. But it's alright, at least i can use the computer again.

Oh wait! The worst thing about this computer is that it deleted my Photoshop CS4. *shucks! So i'm installing a new one on Monday since i will be borrowing Marck's installer. And yeah, ~~I'll not be able to do some photoshop magic~~ for a while.... (T^T)

kawaii desu!!!!

Cute right? He's so my type. He reminds me of Kyouka from Ouran High School Host Club, see the resemblance? They look a lot like each other, he's like an anime came to life. And that's what i've been waiting for all my life. A guy who's looks are total anime like. Hmm, but i don't like a guy who looks like an anime but is totally freaky.

Who is he? It's a secret that should be revealed right about now. xoxo, Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Nate Shimittan Darou?

Really, i don't know who the heck is he. I just saw him on TVXQ mv called どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう? (Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Nate Shimittan Darou?/ Why did i end up falling in love with you?). I tried to search him in the internet, but no results. I don't know if he's an actor, a model or what. *sad..

I just took those pictures in YouTube by screen cap. Yeah, what a great mind i have.. Check out the mv, it's a nice one.

P.S (Not him related) I've got mistaken for a Vietnamese-Chinese. funny..

Funny Primary >_<

2009-09-07T04:02:00.000-07:00

My new Friendster primary photo. I look funny in the picture, right? May not be one of my best picture but yeah it's so cute. Like i said, I'm not that photogenic so don't expect a lot of nice pictures and my face looks stupid. Lol.

Oh, anyways this is just a short post. Hmm, i finally watched Heartbreak Library by the way. Nice movie, Lee Dong Wook and Eugene is the ultimate meaning to perfection. I love them both in the movie and Lee Dong Wook look extra hot in there. I also love Eugene's clothes, it's so cute and so Korean. I simply admire the movie.. there both a great actor and actress, you should watch it. My mom is going to watch it too, she really loves Lee Dong Wook.

In Pain T.T

2009-09-05T04:42:00.000-07:00

Grr, do you know what it feels after your braces have been adjust and the molar band had been force inside your tooth? No? Well, it's obviously very painful. I hate my braces now, all i can eat is noodles and soup, even rice is hard for me to chew . Sigh, and every time i'll wake up i will feel the oh-so freakin' pain.

*cries...
(Btw, the color of braces now is White. Dull? I have my reasons)

So, i spend my whole Saturday staring at the blank TV . We had no electric the whole day for goodness sake. Grown-ups always ruin the "fun". Instead of spending my Saturday in the computer or watching a Korean drama on TV, i have to wait patiently and boringly for the lights to comeback....and my braces is still in pain.

Give me a break.

Good part.good part.goOod paAart.good.good.good.part.part.part
I made some new friends in Soompi. I love my 411, though the pictures looks pathetic. I hate not being photogenic . Still, it was nice that they replied on my 411.

Whitelisted

2009-09-04T04:49:00.000-07:00

I've got whitelisted. cool! i thought the package got lost in the mail because my buyer hasn't been messaging me, luckily it arrived safely. I'm so happy. I think this is the best part of my week. I can't think of any good thing that had happened to me within the week. It just gave me pain, misery and mostly pain. But anyways, I'm so happy! I hope the other package that i sent in Canada will arrive soon...
But one problem... I don't know how to Buyerlist. Hahaha!

And oh, i finally created a 411 in Soompi. No one had replied on it yet. But i hope someone will.
Check it out. My 411

What a Day!

2009-09-02T07:10:00.000-07:00

Today was so tiring again. From 3:30 in the morning until 7 in the evening was so exhausting, can you believe it? I'm still young and I'm so stressed and buisy.... I don't know, i think some of it are kind of fun in a way, but i just hate the morning part. Gosh! I feel like I'm going to die that time.

Okay, if you saw this picture (the one on the left).. it's just my dinner. Fries, burger, an ice cream and cola, my perfect dinner today. I know it's not that much but i feel like eating a burger today, thanks to my mom.

This is what happened to me today:
- woke up at 3 in the morning for make-up.
- the twirlers were late....
- parade started at 8 and finished around 9 or something.
- i feel like I'm going to die after the parade
- went home to change clothes and became a cam-whore for a while.
- went to school to facilitate the dodge ball and amazing race.
- teachers were so slow, especially the yellow team.
- found a dress to wear for the mr. and ms. intramural.
- didn't enter at my own house for an hour. Obviously, i got locked out.
- ate at jollibee.
- I missed Shim Changmin on twitter which sucks by the way.
- slept....

..and tomorrow is another oh-so tiring day
Zzz..(u_u)

Speedy Scandal

2009-08-28T01:49:00.000-07:00

No wonder why Speedy Scandal topped the box office on it's opening week in Korea (^3^), it was absolutely a movie worth watching. But to compare the movie with reality, i think it's hard to believe that a guy on his 30's will actually have a 22 yrs. old daughter and a 6 yrs. old grandchild. To come to think of it, this days nothing really is impossible.

Never had a review before, so here goes nothing.

Cha Tae Hyun: He's a really good actor despite his looks (#^.^#) but i'm not saying he's ugly or anything, i even think in this movie his looks..umm, what's the word i'm looking for? "developed" yeah, something like that. But enough about that, Cha Tae Hyun was really funny on the film (as always, like in the Sassy Girl Movie) but also kind of weird too.

Park Bo-Yeong: She's really pretty, no doubt about that. At first i didn't think so because on her first scene she looks like a wreck but as the movie goes on and when his father "fix" her up she looks absoulutely gorgeous.

Hwak Seok-Hyeon: My favorite character in the movie. He's the cutest little boy i've ever seen in my entire life, i just simply love the way he smirks.